To cut a long story short.

Here's my life. my dilemma. summarised in a few words.

You already the know about the-ex. We broke up, erm I decided to break up owing to the dead albatross relationship i had with him.

I met the-boy at work. We hit it off. Really really well. We absolutely loved each others' company. Cracked jokes. Were in the same profession. Loved the same things. Well you know about that too!

We dreamt of getting married. of going to europe to work. of having kids together. Then it changed. I was not sure. Maybe I still couldnt forget the-ex. He was still there.Between us. Not at all the times. But yes, he had a presense and it showed. :(

The - ex went away to work. some other country. We wouldn't talk for days at end. i.e. if i wouldn't call, he wouldn't either. Of course, he was always busy. maybe too busy for me. But I didn't want that. I didn't want to be a door mat anymore. I thought to call it quits. He thought that this is yet again one of my threats. which I never would carry out. he was sadly mistaken. This time round. *sigh*

He came to know of my dating the-boy. he went ballistic. He went mad with rage and grief (or so he claimed).
He vowed to bring back the magic. To get me back. proclaiming that I am his. and that I couldn't be with anyone else.

I being the fool that I am, believed him. If only for a moment. But it was enough. For him to sweep me off my feet only to drop me, yet again.